Sir,
Sometimes my memory goes back
to the time we served in Scotland, the young men I lived with and certain
things that happened. It may or may not be interesting, besides perhaps
there’s no computer made big enough to hold every little thing.
It came to mind we had two
O.B.E (Order of the British Empire) medals in our division, awarded for
excellence in map reading which was very important to all platoon commanders
in the Homeguard. They were Owen Dollimont of St Josephs Bay d'Espoir and
John Dumaresque of Forteau Bay. They had two medals to give out but all
excelled so they had to put the medals in a hat and draw, these two won
the draw. I worked with both. Owen died at home some years ago. John joined
the Airforce, and on his second trip out as rear gunner on a Lancaster
bomber got shot and was listed as missing in action. John told me he had
a child born to a girl back home whom he never saw,and did not even know
the girl was pregnant till some months after he got over there. That child,
boy or girl could be living today. He did not tell me this was confidential
and this is the reason I speak about it now.
I read the interview with Mr
Gabriel saying he was Indian. I too am a Micmac, and lived as one from
birth to the time I went overseas. I started out with my father and
uncle when I was eight years old, this was my school and I had to learn
to survive off the land in those times. I knew of nothing else just hunting
and trapping, fall, winter, spring and summer. I never got a chance
to go to school which was very inconvenient. Out in the real world, talk
about discrimination it followed me right over there. We used to try to
hide our identity when we would go outside of Conne. Some of us with sort
of fair features could manage to get away with it, but mention the name
Jeddore anywhere in Newfoundland and it was recognized as Indian right
away. Being recognized as Indian did not matter, it was the disadvantages
and accusations that went with it that mattered most. I said it went with
me overseas. I met a young girl and was going out (with her) for about
a year. One time some other fellows from around the bay (who were) familiar
with Conne and the Indians, happened to be in Edinburgh. We met and was
talking for a while as friends, I thought, (but) after I got back to the
house where I was staying the people said those fellows told us you were
Indian is that true ? I did not know what to expect being used to the worst,
it seemed it did not mean anything to them. I said I'm supposed to be related..
I heard after when they told their friends an Indian was at their place
the friends asked do they wear any clothes? After meeting they said
it was the nicest people they ever met. As I said, I lived the Indian life.
As a matter of fact I would never have went over seas if bullets was not
so scarce. Myself and an Indian friend just got out of the country from
trapping, it was in the spring, May month, we were muskrat trapping. We
came out, sold our furs and was going to go right back in again the next
day but the merchant had no shot or bullets. We knew of another little
store that might have some, and on walking to this store we passed a building.
As we passed by the building some friends of mine from across the bay was
coming out and they were talking and laughing, right happy. I asked them
what was going on? They said we are going overseas they need us over
there to cut timber, the pay is good also. You know I just turned to my
old Indian trapper friend and said I have to go in and sign up too. He
just stood there and nodded his head as if to say I'll be waiting when
you come back. So ended our happy hunting trips. Many evenings over
there I sat and pondered what I had given up, the happy times sitting
by the steady watching the muskrats swimming around.
Travelling mile after mile
on foot, over barren grounds and marshes, through heavy timber, by canoe
up and down rapids, across lakes and ponds, the herds of caribou, the bear,
beaver, fox, otter, ducks and geese my every day company. I missed
the nights lying under the stars by an open fire, watching the flankers
streaming skywards. I missed the comfort of the tent or wigwam with
the rain beating on the covering of birch bark.There were times I thought
how am I ever going to take this awful change, yet I knew I had to carry
on, One day some fellows who had been over there for a year came up to
visit. One fellow said I know how you feel, but after you pass six
months it will be all right. How right he was. When the war was over
I had a mind to stay on for a while, and would have if everyone in the
camp didn't sign off to come home. I came back to a frustrating change…
Bowaters was ravishing the land.
Instead of my happing hunting
ground, I had to take the bucksaw again and go in the woods. I found my
old Indian friend there with the sweat rolling off him. We never did seriously
get back to the hunting life but some evenings after work we would walk
off and sit on a nob and talk about the good times, knowing in our hearts
it had passed .
So I got carried away, seems I can’t forget it…
John N Jeddore